Tuesday, September 30, 2014

He's Home

While being surrounded by my family, seeing my brothers for the first time since Easter since they were both abroad all summer, I had this profound desire to wrap them in my arms and never let them go (I almost envision it as a loving choke hold because it's that strong of a embrace). When I see my dear cousins lose their brother my heart breaks even imagining what that would feel like. I appreciate their honesty in stating how difficult it really is but also always proclaiming the hope that exists for Will and all of us in Jesus. My initial response to this tragedy is to move “home” and never let my family leave my sight. But here's the thing...we can't live life like that. Living at “home” and clinging to my family with the death grip is not my story and it’s not how God has called me to live. When we surrender our lives to Jesus we surrender all of us- our families included. My cousin Caroline, amidst tears, shared her wisdom with me on this. We can hold as tight to the things in this world that bring us security but we can’t stop the brokenness, sin, and death in this world. My family is what I love most in this world .They are incredible and I am so blessed. But they’re still not my home.

Yes, Iowa is a great state and it’s my “home”, and more importantly my family is “home” but those things will never fully satisfy and they are never guaranteed to exist. So what truly is home? It's Heaven. It's where my cousin Will is celebrating right now. It's where I can't wait to join him someday.

In Prodigal God Tim Keller talks about Jesus’ parable of the prodigal son who goes away to find a better life but he is disappointed and longs for home. In the book Tim Keller discusses how if we go back to where we call home we will always be disappointed. “The strong feelings that surround home reveal a deep longing within us for a place that absolutely fits and suits us, where we can find and be our more true selves. Yet there is no real place or family that satisfies these yearnings, yet many arouse them. Here on earth we are always traveling, never arriving. Home always evades us. We were created to live in the Garden of Eden and we don’t. We have been living in a world that’s not our home and we have become subject to disease and death. Though we need love that lasts, all our relationships are subject to the inevitable entropy of time and they crumble in our hands. We have a life-long nostalgia, a longing to be reunited with something in the universe from which we’ve been cut off, to be on the inside of some door from which we’ve only seen from outside.”

Will is home. He won. Those of you who knew Will know how competitive he was with his Nichols blood. He beat us to the feast with Jesus and now he experiences true joy with no pain or hurt.

But why are we all hurting so much? Why do our hearts ache? Why are the tears unending? Why is it so hard to return to normal life? Why isn’t the world put on hold so we can mourn? Because we’re not all Home yet.

So what do we do? Just sit here and wait to get to our true Home? No, that’s not what we’re called to do and that’s not what Will did. Will led us well. He was not perfect but he loved his wife and family, worked hard and served others. And because of him others know their true Home and will join him there someday. I praise God that Will is welcomed Home and someday he will welcome all of us there if our lives are in God's hands.

So with heavy hearts we say "Happy 28th Birthday Will".

You, my beloved cousin, are Home.

"For the Christian, death is not the end of an adventure but a doorway from a world where dreams and adventures shrink, to a world where dreams and adventures forever expand."
Randy Alcorn, Heaven

*Rev 21:4 “He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain-for the old world has passed away.”*

I encourage everyone to look into the book Prodigal God by Tim Keller or Heaven by Randy Alcorn if you want more information on the Home I refer to. Also, feel free to message me with any questions or read my cousins blogs on their families mourning with Hope (http://nblo.gs/10js9k)


Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Half Ironman Joy Town Support Raising and Race

I am completely blown away.  My entire Half Ironman experience has been an incredible journey. I am humbled by first of all, God's dream that he gave me to compete and support raise for something that I am so passionate about. And secondly, I am humbled by the support and encouragement of my friends and family.

6 months ago when I landed back in the US from my time in Kenya I had no idea what the Lord had in store for me. I knew I was moving to CO to start my PT job in Ft Collins but I didn’t know how my life in Kenya could ever relate to my life in the US. The worlds felt like polar opposites and it seemed like there were no similiatires between the two. I remember talking to both friends and family about how I could possibly connect the two worlds. What was I supposed to do about the poverty and despair I saw in Kenya? How was I supposed to live changed in the USA when we live in a society that takes almost everything for granted? I started praying that there would be some connection between the two extremes- the life full of hope and new beginnings in CO and the life full of poverty and brokenness in Kenya. 

Exactly 4 months ago I heard of the organization Athletes in Tandem and I was overcome with excitement! I was able to put all of my passions together: both love for individuals wth disabilities and love for the outdoors/exercise. While I was online signing up for one of the many races I've done with them this summer I saw a fundraising tab on the race website. At that moment God put the idea into my head of competing in an event where I could raise support for the kids that I worked with in Kenya at Joy Town, a school/orphanage for kids with disabilities. I am still amazed to this day of how God just gave me a lightbulb moment and told me what I should do. Since then there has only been four blog posts/emails sent out to family and friends. Through those I have been able to raise awareness of the conditions of Joy Town and raise exactly $3,000.00!!!! I personally think that is a lot of money here in the US but it is WAY more money in Kenya.  I emailed the lady who is in charge of the support raising for Bethany Kids (which is in charge of the therapy for the kids at Joy Town) and she was so excited by the donations. I can't wait to hear about (and someday see in person when I return to Kenya) the changes that they are able to make at Joy Town with these donations.
I want to thank all of you for playing a role in supporting me but most importantly for supporting these precious Kenyan kids!  Also, I want to thank everyone for encouraging me and cheering me on with my training and race. The process of training was difficult with being new at all 3 sports, moving to a new city and starting a new job, lots of traveling and some bouts of sickness, but it was an incredible experience to train for something way beyond myself. 
For those of you who are curious about the race...it went well! I feel like it's just an extra bonus on top of the support raising that I was able to compete well. I was able to place 3rd for my age group and top 10 out of 156 total females with a time of 5:35 mins (25 mins faster than my goal time!) It was a pretty tough and long competition. All 3 events were difficult- since I'm not experienced in any of the 3 events all of them had there difficult aspects. One of the toughest parts was especially the bike ride with the last 20 miles being against 20 mph headwind with lots of hill climbing. But the most difficult part was the half marathon run after the bike- every step of the 13.1 miles felt like an eternity in the hot blazing sun! I am so very thankful for my mom, aunt, cousin and 7 Ft Collins friends who traveled far distances with their neon clothing and posters to come cheer me on!
 
 I wanted to share the finish line photo below (taken when I was just getting off the slip n slide at the race finish) and I'm posing next to the poster that says "running, biking, swimming for JOY TOWN" If I look tired in this picture it's because I was ; )
Thanks again to everyone, both near and far. My encouragement to you all is to never doubt the surprises that God has in store for you. I guarantee that He has things planned for you that will completely blow you away.



Monday, August 25, 2014

Joy Town Support Raising- 2 weeks until race time!

This will be my last update on my support raising for my 1/2 IronMan 70.3 mile competition and I will include some details on Joy Town (the location where all the money is going!) and a brief update on my training. 

Memories from Joy Town...
Last Friday when I was back in Iowa City I was able to speak to the University of Iowa physical therapy faculty and students about my trip to Kenya. It was really neat because I got to share with them lots of stories from my experience working at Kijabe hospital and at Joy Town. If at any point you would like to see the powerpoint presentation that I shared with them then please let me know because I’d love to either share it with you in person or if that doesn’t work then I can send you the link to watch the live version. If you want to see the powerpoint that I presented then please feel free to go to this link- there are lots of pictures and videos that are pretty priceless! https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/1y55b2KCcE1iJoG-y5zOrRrRcf9vOxLDoZCw1sZtawFk/pub?start=false&loop=false&delayms=5000

I learned a lot about giving aid to 3rd world countries while in Kenya. I want to share 2 examples that I saw firsthand at Joy Town:
1) There is a wheelchair race course at Joy Town and the kids love the course and have races often since most of the kids there are wheelchair bound. If you look in the background of the picture below you see a stadium seating area…someone generously donated it to Joy Town but they did not have the foresight to make it handicap accessible.  Since the majority of kids at Bethany Kids are in wheelchairs then a large portion of the kids can’t use the stadium to cheer on their peers that are racing.


2)  An organization donated a pool to Joy Town because they thought it would be helpful for the kids to have a pool to do aquatherapy in to help them with their disabilities. Unfortunately, now there is a pool at Joy Town but there aren’t any physiotherapists that are even remotely trained in aquatherapy because that type of therapy doesn’t really exist in Kenya. The kids at Joy Town do get to go occasionally swimming but the upkeep with the pool is extremely expensive and difficult since ~1/5 of the kids do not have bladder/bowel control due to spina bifida and other neurologic disorders.



My point with these stories is not to discourage you to send money to organizations in 3rd world countries. However, my point is to encourage you to do your research and investigate before you give. I have seen Joy Town with my own eyes and spent a long enough time there to know that the money that you have all donated is going to be used in order to improve the physiotherapy for the kids at Joy Town, which is a huge need.

Support raising- With all of your help I've now been able to raise $1,381.46 for Bethany Kids at Joy Town! Thanks so much to all of you who have helped support me! My goal through the 1/2 IronMan campaign was to raise at least $1,000 to send to Bethany Kids in order that more lives can be changed there. I really hope to raise more support these last two weeks because I can't wait to see the changes that they'll be able to make at Joy Town with all of the donations.

Training- 2 more weeks to go! It’s been a crazy last 1.5 months since I’ve written- unfortunately, I’ve had some sickness which has gotten in the way of my training and I’ve also been doing a lot of traveling back to the Midwest which has also made training difficult. However, I have gotten in a couple of ~60 mile bikes,~8 mile runs which were very difficult and long but they were good to build my confidence for race day. The most exciting part of my training has been that I was able to do a triathlon with Athletes in Tandem. 

The individual with disabilities that I raced with was 19 years old and she had never done any type of race before so I met with her for several times beforehand to make sure that her caretaker and her  felt comfortable with all 3 events and the transitions between them. Her caretaker was nervous how she would respond to 3 completely new things that she hadn’t experienced before but she was a ROCKSTAR. We had so much fun cheering on everyone that we passed during the triathlon…she would typically let out a holler and clap. While doing activities she frequently finds a song that she likes and sings one line over and over again- sometimes it’s Happy Birthday, sometimes it’s Hotel California or another oldies song. She absolutely loved the bike ride because she enjoyed going fast and I guess every day since then she has said “go for bike ride” on repeat because she really wants to go again. I hope to race with her again because I built a great relationship with her, her caregiver and her family through the process and it was an extremely rewarding process!

I am now tapering for race day and I would appreciate prayers for health the next 2 weeks before my race so that I can race both safe and strong and have fun!

To wrap it all up I want to say THANKS AGAIN to all of you for supporting me but more importantly for supporting and loving my Kenyan friends. You have no idea how much it means to me and how much of an impact it will have on them! The next email you will receive from me will be my last in that I will share the total amount raised and I will let you know how the race went!

If you are interested in supporting Bethany Kids at Joy Town the details are below:
I encourage you to support me for every mile of my half ironman race which is 70.3 total miles- 1.2 swim, 56 bike, 13.1 run! I am asking that you choose to donate a certain dollar amount for every mile I complete, 1 quarter would be $18.00, 2 quarters= $35.00, 3 quarters= $53.00, 1 dollar= $70.00. However, if you want to donate any other dollar amount that is fine as well.


If you are interested in donating then please send a check written out to Bethany Kids with Joy Town in the memo and send it to my address at 4408 John F Kennedy B302 Fort Collins, CO.

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

JOY TOWN- asking for continued support

Like I promised, every month until my big race I am going to share a brief update on my support raising for my 1/2 IronMan 70.3 competition and I will include a story that I witnessed at Joy Town (the location where all the money is going!) and a brief update on my training. The good news is that it has been a GREAT month...both for support raising and for training! 



Memories from Joy Town...
The first time I went to Joy Town there were a lot of things that stood out to me. One of them was the way that physiotherapy is the highlight of the kids' days- all the kids have physio scheduled into their weekly routine and a bunch of them will be scheduled at the same time so they will make the long trek there together. It isn't a very far distance from the school room to the physio room but because all of the kids are physically handicapped and are in wheelchairs or use walkers, it takes a while for them to get there. Also, there aren't a lot of hills around the school property but the grade is steep enough to make it challenging for the kids using wheelchair and assistive devices. What's incredible is the way that the kids form a line and start pushing each other in whatever way possible. The kids with walkers will help push the kids in the wheelchairs and they'll keep helping eachother the whole way, even up the hills, until they reach the physio room. If you want to see the most inspirational type of teamwork then you have to see the way these kids help and support eachother everyday along this commute!
While in the Physio room at Joy Town I realized how blessed we are with the quality of our PT care here. There were at least 12 kids doing physio at one time- a lot of them were propped into an extension position (due to their medial conditions they are in flexion most of the day in their wheelchairs and etc) and coloring, one had actually fallen asleep. Since the school is so poorly funded they only have 4 physios and a couple assistants that are tasked with the job of seeing 300 kids all 2x/week for physio. The staff there are having an incredible impact on the kids and are dramatically changing the kids' abilities to move and function but just imagine how much more they could accomplish if they weren't so understaffed! My dream is that they would be able to staff at least two more physios so that there would be at least a 1 physio to 2 student ratio at all times.
 
 
Support raising- I've now been able to raise $1,019 for Bethany Kids at Joy Town with all of your generous donations! Thanks so much to all of you who have helped support me! My goal through the 1/2 IronMan campaign was to raise at least $1,000 to send to Bethany Kids in order that more lives can be changed there. I can't believe that I've already surpassed that goal within only two months. I really want to continue to raise more and more support because I can't wait to see the changes that they'll be able to make at Joy Town with all of the donations.  Please join me in this mission! 

Training- 2 months down, 2 more to go! I've been continuing to do smaller races with Athletes in Tandem. Every Wednesday night there is a triathlon series at Horsetooth Reservoir (which is the most beautiful part of Fort Collins and only a couple miles from me) so I have been doing that with them. Also, I have been doing some running races as well. It is really difficult to pull athletes on the bike and also to push with the run but I would have to say swimming is the easiest event to complete with them once you get started moving forward. One of the running races the guy that I was pushing (190 lb man- aka HARD WORK!) kept saying "Wo Wo Wo" and his friend told me that means "Go faster" which was an issue because I couldn't run any faster! haha I gave him all I could and we had a lot of fun together!


  I've also been able to complete an olympic distance triathlon (1 mile swim, 27 mile bike, 10k run) It went well and I finished in 2:35- I dropped 8 mins off my time from the first olympic tri I did in Iowa that I won 1st place at but here I got 8 out of 80! The race results show what stiff competition there is in Fort Collins/Boulder/Denver area! I wish I could go back to Iowa and compete at sea level because I know I would place better but I have to remind the competitive side of myself that it's not all about winning ; ) But training has been fun, for the most part, I have gotten caught in a couple rain showers/hail storms on my bike which hasn't been ideal.
Overall though I am honestly getting burnt out by training...it takes a LOT of time to weekly go on 50+ mile bikerides and run 12+. Most people say you need to at least train 15+ hrs a week which adds up and leaves your body feeling exhausted!
 
To wrap it up I want to say THANKS AGAIN to all of you for supporting me but more importantly my Kenyan friends. You have no idea how much it means to me and how much of an impact it will have on them!
 
If you are interested in supporting Bethany Kids at Joy Town the details are below:
 
I encourage you to support me for every mile of my half ironman race which is 70.3 total miles- 1.2 swim, 56 bike, 13.1 run! I am asking that you choose to donate a certain dollar amount for every mile I complete, 1 quarter would be $18.00, 2 quarters= $35.00, 3 quarters= $53.00, 1 dollar= $70.00. However, if you want to donate any other dollar amount that is fine as well.

If you are interested in donating then please send a check written out to Bethany Kids with Joy Town in the memo and send it to my address at 4408 John F Kennedy B302 Fort Collins, CO.

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

JOY TOWN...something worth donating to

Today I am writing to raise awareness and support for a cause that is very near and dear to my heart. This winter my life was changed when I set foot at JOY TOWN in Nairobi, Kenya where there are 300 kids with physical disabilities who both go to school there and receive rehabilitation for their disabilities. The Salvation Army runs the school at Joy Town but Bethany Kids runs the rehabilitaiton program for the kids and they need the funds to be able to support the rehab services for these kids. The rehabilitation staff is incredibly important in that they teach the kids how to handle their disabilites and they help them achieve their goals of wheeling their own wheelchairs, walking with a walker, being able to self cath so they don't wet themselves, and etc. The kids have all different types of physical disabilities such as spina bifida, hydrocephalus, cerebral palsy, and etc.

 Here in the US we are so blessed to have government instituted programs that provide therapy for kids with disabilities but in Kenya such a program is not in place. If the 300 kids did not live at Joy Town then they would not receive any therapy and instead they would be shunned and neglected by their community, often either being abandoned or poisoned to death. The kids at Joy Town get to gain an education and reach their physical goals while at the same time learning about how they are loved and created them for a purpose. If you would like to know more about how kids with disabilities are treated in Kenya then I encourage you to read my blog http://annadventur.blogspot.com/2014/03/joy-town.html. It is very moving to read about Francesca's story and to watch it on youtube as well. 

Even though I am back living in the US I want to sponsor all the kids that I interacted with at Joy Town by helping raise the much needed funds for Bethany Kids. Without fundraising efforts the 300 kids would not be receiving the quality rehabilitation care that they both need and deserve. As many of you know, I love training for various races and triathlons and so I have decided that I am going to train for my longest and hardest race yet, the Harvest Moon Half Ironman on September 7, 2014. (http://www.withoutlimits.co/#!harvest-moon-triathlon-duathlon--aqua/c1hxw) Please help me support these precious kiddos by supporting me for every mile of my half ironman race which is 70.3 total miles- 1.2 swim, 56 bike, 13.1 run!  I am asking that you choose to donate a certain dollar amount for every mile I complete, 1 quarter would be $18.00, 2 quarters= $35.00, 3 quarters= $53.00, 1 dollar= $70.00. If you want to donate any other dollar amount that is fine as well. I firmly believe that we are all blessed in order to be a blessing to others so I highly encourage you to support these kids with me. My total goal is to raise $1,000 because the costs to give 300 kids 2 PT sessions a week is very expensive. Bethany Kids runs mainly on donations so anything that you are willing to give would be much appreciated!

If you are interested in donating then please send a check written out to Bethany Kids with Joy Town in the memo and send it to my address at 4408 John F Kennedy B302 Fort Collins, CO.

If you are interested in more information on Bethany Kids then I encourage you to check out their webpage at http://www.bethanykids.org/. There are numerous inspiring stories about the incredible work they are doing to support kids with disabilities in Kenya.

Also, please don't hesitate to contact me via email or phone if you have any questions. I am very passionate about what Bethany Kids is doing to provide therapy for the kids at Joy Town and I would love to talk to people more individually about it!

 

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Miles Smiles

Whenever I move to a new place and new people ask me about my family I always respond by saying that my brothers are my life heroes and my best friends. And it’s true. My brothers are my heroes because I learn so much from them in the way that they live their lives. They’re also my best friends because they’re extremely supportive and encouraging. I am so thankful that God has blessed me with 2 amazing brothers!
Today is Miles 23rd birthday so I want to dedicate this post to him…
I appreciate how Miles is such a great leader. He has always been a leader- whether it was on the highschool football or quizbowl team, or if it was on the Wheaton tennis team, or for the Stars group (organization that he was in charge of at Wheaton for the mentally and physically handicapped.) Miles has a very unique ability to lead his peers and earn their respect with his confidence and humility.
I appreciate how Miles is such a hard worker. Miles has always worked extremely hard in his sports and in school. A good example of this is few years ago we were on a family trip and Miles was preparing for the MCAT so he would take half the day and study even though we were all on the beach playing with the family. That’s the difference between Miles and I…This past family vacation I was studying for my PT licensure exam and I could barely get myself to study because I wanted to be outside with the fam. I just don’t have the same work ethic and drive as him, and honestly I don’t know many people that do. Miles has always worked hard in everything throughout his life.
I appreciate how Miles is a great friend. I remember being at Miles and Emily’s wedding last summer and looking around at all the friends who care about him and appreciate him so much. Miles is someone who would drop anything in order to help out a friend in any way possible. Miles is one of the most loyal guys and I can tell that all of his friends feel that and really appreciate that about him.
I appreciate how Miles loves his family. He is a super busy guy trying to do med school well, be a good husband, and have a social life but yet he always makes time for Vince, my parents and I. He’s always making time to talk to me about life and give me encouragement and support on whatever I need. A good example of his love and sacrifice for his family is that Emily and him drove back to Ames for a less than 24 hr trip with the sole purpose being seeing me after I returned all jetlagged and sick from Kenya and before I moved out to CO the following day.
I appreciate Miles’ marriage with Emily. 1) I appreciate how he chose such an amazing wife because now he has an incredible woman to spend the rest of his life growing and learning with, but more selfishly I have an awesome sister-in-law ; ) 2) I appreciate how he loves and serves his wife. It has been amazing for me to see Miles become such a godly husband who pursues his wife and puts her first. I love seeing how their relationship is focused on Christ and it’s really neat to see a relationship that demonstrates the relationship between Christ and his bride, the church, so well. He lives out what Tim Keller says in The Meaning of Marriage “Marriage was designed to be a reflection of the saving love of God for us in Jesus Christ.”
I appreciate how Miles is devoted to his relationship with God. He has always been so faithful in spending time with the Lord every day. If you’ve seen Miles’ bookshelf before then you can tell that he loves digging into theological books. He is always reading deep Christian material in order to grow and be challenged in his faith.
I appreciate Miles’ hearts for missions. After spending one month in Kenya doing medical missions I’ve realized how much I admire his heart for doing the same because I realized how hard it is. He spent a whole semester in Ecuador apart from Emily (his girlfriend at the time, wife now) volunteering at a mission hospital because that is where his heart is. And now he’s going to Peru all summer to do more research and medical missions. It’s a big deal for him to give up his last summer ever to do that, especially when his wife doesn’t get to be there with him for the first month of it. The strong passion and calling he feels for medical missions is obvious with the amount of sacrifices he’s willing to make in order to serve on these trips.
My heart is full today with gratitude. I am thankful for my brother Miles and I am so proud of him for the man of God he has become.
(The above collage Miles made me for a Christmas gift recently! My favorite pic is the leotard one in the center)

Monday, April 7, 2014

Time to reflect

I have been continually overwhelmed by the Lord's provision and faithfulness in my life since this past May. Life has been absolutely crazy and I haven't taken the proper time to reflect on it but it's time to now. I need to look back and acknowledge the Lord's continual provision and faithfulness in my life. I have made 6 moves since May and in each place I didn't know anyone and I didn't have any idea where I would live but never once did God leave me sleeping on the streets or in my car, instead he introduced me to the most amazing of people that welcomed me into their homes and their hearts.

I want to rewind back to May when I moved out from Iowa City and finished my last ever PT school classes. I was so sad to wrap up that stage of my life and to leave my bestfriends but I was also nervous about moving to Chicago because I didn't know anyone there and I had no where to live for the 9 week internship. I contacted a lot of old college friends that I hadn't kept up with and one happened to have a friend that was going on a mission trip to Thailand the exact dates I was in Chicago for my internship so I was able to sublease from her. I was blessed to have an awesome roommate who welcomed me into her super fun group of friends. We had so much fun adventuring and exploring the city and I learned a lot professionally at my clinical!

Then came my next move which seemed a lot more scary because it was way farther away and I knew absolutely no one within a 10+ hr radius, and again I had no idea where I was going to live. I moved to Durham to work at Duke hospital and it turns out that an old neighbor of mine from Ames went to PT school at Duke and she knew of a girl who was also on a PT away clinical and needed a subleaser. I got to move in with 2 girls that I had never met before but they were great and they helped show me how Durham is such a wonderful place. I was able to meet terrific people and families in the area and I absolutely fell in love with NC and also with PT in a neuro rehab setting!

Then my next move was to CO which I was super excited for until 2 months before it was supposed to start when I found out that the clinic I was scheduled to intern with (Steadman Hawkins in Vail) cancelled on me and I had to frantically look for a new internship and find a new living situation. Again, God provided. It turned out that I had very distant relatives that I had never met before that lived 20 mins away from my clinical internship. My empty nester relatives welcomed me with open arms for the 9 weeks I was there. I got to build some amazing relationships with people in Boulder and again learned a ton from my clinical. While living there I also got to build some connections in CO in attempts to eventually land a job there.

Then I took a quick break from the difficult but great moves across the country and I moved back home temporarily. This wasn't necessarily an easy stage though because I had to study for the biggest test of my life...PT BOARDS. I really didn't know if I was going to pass because I've never been a good test taker. During this time I was also applying for jobs because I really wanted to go to Kenya not feeling the pressure of having to apply for jobs over there. I was extremely anxious because I didn't know if I would be able to get a job in the state I hoped and dreamed to work in because over and over again I was told that there were no jobs available for new grads in CO. I applied for a lot of jobs during the time home studying but all of them said no because they needed someone earlier than I could work since I was going to Kenya. I had seriously completely given up on the idea of 1) getting a job before leaving for Kenya becuase I was running out of time and 2) getting a job in CO because I was told it was impossible as a new grad. One day I literally pulled out an atlas and made a list of every place I'd consider working but none of them was as exciting to me as CO. Thankfully I was able to pass my big boards exam and the same day I flew out to CO for an interview at a clinic I had job shadowed once as a student and had left knowing it was my dream job. I didn't have high hopes of getting the job at the interview because they had told me they'd never hired a new grad before because it was a job with big expectations. But a day before getting on the plane for Kenya they called me and offered me the job and I was completely surprised and ecstatic! It was my first PT job interview ever and I had landed my dream job in my dream location! The thing that was so unique about it was that it was after I finally surrendered my plan of getting a job before going to Kenya and finally gave up my dream of living in CO is when God opened up the door for the job. It's when I finally stopped saying "God I need to have a job before I leave and I need to be in CO. You need to make this happen," and I started saying, "God put me where you want me and when you want me there, I trust you."

Then I hopped on the plane to Kenya and I had the most humbling/challenging/rewarding experience of my life that I'm still learning and growing from and trying to process. If you want to know more about the trip then read my blogs from my time there or ask me about it because it was completely life changing. God provided for me in so many ways during my time there but one main way was with my housing situation. My parents left Kenya after two weeks working at the hospital/school and we were told it wasn't safe enough for me to stay in the apartment alone as a single white female so I needed to find another living situation. God provided a wonderful missionary woman who worked at the school up the hill and she had an extra bedroom and she welcomed me in with open arms. I was sick the entire first week I lived with her but she took care of me and encouraged me through some really rough days working at the hospital.

Since I left so quick for Kenya after being offered the job I didn't have time to find housing in Fort Collins and due to the lack of internet and phone service in Kenya I didn't have time to work on it while I was over there. Unfortunately, my start date at work was two days after I got home from Kenya so I didn't have much time margin. 4 days before I was flying home from Kenya my mom was randomly chatting with a family friend and she found out that they had family friends who lived really close to my new job location. She immediately called them and asked if I could live there for 2 weeks before I could find my own housing situation. The family completely took me in and helped me by answering all of my many questions about the new area. They let me stay there for over 2 weeks, 10 of those days being when I was extremely sick with a parasite and really overwhelmed with culture shock.

The 2 weeks of living with them quickly came to an end and I still had no idea where I was going to move in Fort Collins. But again...God is so good and he provides. I thankfully had some amazing friends who were working hard to find me housing. A friend of a friend messaged me and said she was thinking about moving out while at the same time her roommate was talking to the family I was living with at the time and said that she had a room in her apartment opening up. The two girls didn't know they were talking about the same person until right before I showed up to check out the place, haha. I just moved in last weekend when my awesome parents packed up all of my stuff in a Uhaul and drove it out to CO because I didn't have enough time to pack up and move out before my work start date. Now I get to live with 2 awesome young ladies in a great apartment in a perfect location, both close to work and the foothills ; )

Even though I'm overwhelmed with all the adjustments and transitions of another move and I'm still feeling very burdened with being back in the States and not knowing how to process everything I saw and experienced in Kenya, I can't help but give thanks to God for how he has continually provided for me and been faithful during this long period of moves across the country/world. I have moved 6 times to new places and in each place I had no idea where I'd live or who would be in my life to help/encourage me but God knew exactly what I needed and he provided for those needs. And now I am beyond blessed to have my dream job in my dream living location.

I don't know what you're going through right now- you might be struggling with health issues, you might be stuck in never ending school work, you might be facing tough pressure at work, you might be in the middle of relationship problems, you might be having a lot of family conflict, you might be in some really challenging stuff because this life on earth is full of challenges and difficulties but I just pray that you will be encouraged by the beautiful story of provision and faithfulness that God has written in my life and in the lives of everyone.

God provides. And he is always faithful. I encourage you to take time to reflect on how that has been true in your life up until now and also take hope in knowing that his provision and faithfulness will hold true for your future.

(Above picture was taken in Kijabe hospital- my dad did surgery removing the heterotopic ossification from the young female patient who had a burn 10 years previously, and I was privledged to do her PT and re-teach her how to bend her knee and walk. The Kenyan Dr. next to my dad was an ortho resident that my dad got to train and the Kenyan physio on the end was a young physio that I got to work with and train.)

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Eyes wide open

This is the last blog I wrote on my trip to Kenya:

When you come here and see the desperate need of the people (and the country as a whole) it is extremely overwhelming and it makes you either want to a) run away because the need is so deep and you don’t even know where to start or b) jump in head first, get your hands dirty and serve.
I have to be completely honest and admit that I usually felt like doing A. I was so overwhelmed with the extreme need that surrounded me that it made me want to run the other direction. I would look around at the poverty, brokenness and corruptness and I didn’t even know how to respond or what to do. I had no idea where to start helping and I didn’t even know if I could even make a slight difference on the people around me. It honestly just made me want to get on a plane and fly home. Thankfully, I didn’t choose A like I often wanted to. I don’t regret choosing option B one bit but the thing is when you jump right in you have to be prepared for what you’re going to see and encounter and how it can change you forever…
When you see things like the slums and the hospitals in a third world country it rocks your world. It makes you want to turn around and pretend that you’ve never seen it and convince yourself that it doesn’t exist. As I write this I’m ashamed to admit that I can’t wait to go home and be safe and comfortable again but the question is…will I actually be able to return to my life of comfort in the US? The answer is I can if I choose to live unchanged. I probably could block everything I saw from my memory and pretend that the last month didn’t happen but I don’t want to. I want to live radically changed by what I saw and experienced.
I feel like God was constantly telling me “Please observe, please listen. Please open your eyes.” So much of our lives are lived with our eyes closed to the world around us. We don’t look the homeless man in the eyes when we walk past him on the streets because we don’t want to see the depth of his brokenness. We don’t drive through the rough parts of the cities because we don’t want to see the poverty that exists in those neighborhoods. I personally didn’t want to walk into the hospital every day because of the overwhelming smell and sights that hit you like a brick wall every time you set a foot in the door.
But here’s the thing- we’re not supposed to live with our eyes closed. Sometimes I wish we could. Honestly, I wish I could unsee the poverty and the severe need at Joy town (school for the disabled kids) and at Kijabe hospital. Now that I’ve seen it I feel this overwhelming sense of obligation to get my hands dirty, jump right in and help. What I’ve been reminded of during my time here is that we’re not supposed to live with our hands clean. I wish we could because it’s easier, it’s more sanitary. (Maybe if I would have stayed  a little bit more “clean/sanitary” I wouldn’t have gotten a bad virus in Kenya and I wouldn’t have brought a little parasite friend back in my intestines to the US.)  But standing back and keeping our hands clean is not how Jesus lived and that’s not how he called us to live either. What would Jesus do in this situation? He’d jump in and get his hands dirty. What did Jesus do during his life here on earth? He washed the dirtiest of feet. He hungout with the sickest of sick and the poorest of poor.
Here are some examples of what living with my eyes open to the need in Kenya looked like…
1)      I didn’t want to keep my “eyes wide open” when I saw the way that the villagers in Kenya poison their children with disabilities because they’re not wanted in those communities. I didn’t want to know that and I didn’t want to see the effect that has on their culture.
2)      I didn’t want to see how so many Kenyan families were starving because the parents had very basic orthopedic injuries, that in the US would be treated very easily, but there they’re not able to be treated, which means they’re not able to work and not able to provide for their families. I didn’t want to see how common this scenario was or how preventable it could be.
3)      I didn’t want to see the kids that have cerebral palsy and can’t come in for any therapy because they don’t have the $5 that is costs for an hour treatment. I saw this on almost a daily basis and it broke my heart every time.

Examples of jumping right in, serving, and getting your hands dirty…
1)      It was hard to “jump right in” when I would have a Kenyan patient that had severe chronic lower back pain and I was the only PT there who could teach her how to do proper core exercises (they don’t learn those in physio school) but she only spoke Swahili. The language barrier was extremely frustrating but I would just jump up on the dirty table with her and show her what to do. (Side note: it was REALLY funny to see the variations of exercises they came up with while trying them for the first time)
2)       It was hard to serve at the orphanage when literally you have kids pulling on each of your extremities and jumping on the front and back of you at the same time and you kinda just want to have your “bubble” again…Don’t get me wrong this was AWESOME because I loved those kiddos to pieces but there’s a point that you just need some personal space.

3)       It was hard to choose to “get my hands dirty” when I had patients who came in both smelling and looking like they hadn’t showered for months and having to treat their broken foot that they had been walking on the red dirt clay barefoot on every day. I wish I could say that it was easy to ignore the smell and begin treatment with no problem but it wasn’t. It was very difficult. (but so worth it!)

Here’s my challenge: go get outside of your comfortable life and see/do something challenging and let it radically change you. Go to a homeless shelter and serve food. Go to a house of residents with physical and mental disabilities and play games with them. The first step to meeting needs this world has is to go see the needs of this world. Open your eyes to the world around you. You never see the need if you never get out of the daily routine that you live your life in. We were not meant to live small and comfortable lives. Even though home in the US is where I want to be more than anything else right now, if I just remain in my nice house then I will be ignoring the need around me and refusing the change that God is trying to take part in my heart.
I feel partly like a hypocrite because as I write this I’m on a plane going back to the US. And honestly I don’t know if I’m going back to Kenya. I would like to but I don’t know what God has it store for my future. But wherever it is and whatever I will be doing I can’t turn a blind eye to the needs of this world any longer. I’ve seen the desperate need that exists.  I saw it at Joy town, I saw it at Kijabe hospital, and I saw it all over Kenya. But it doesn’t need to be Kenya. Although there is much need in this country of Kenya there is also so much need beyond it as well. Look outside your backyard fence. Where is the need? Who is in need? What is the need? And what are we going to do about it? 

Open your eyes and see the need. And then jump right in and get your hands dirty.
 
 

(Comment: This is a message God has written on my heart and I am the first to humbly admit that I need to have it spoken to my heart more than anyone else because I fail at this and constantly need God’s grace and forgiveness and I need his reminders to live this out on a daily basis.)

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Relational beings


I’ve found out that I can use the same strategy in Kenya as I do in the US in order to make friends… I cook and bake for them ; ) Unfortunately, cooking and baking is way more of a challenge here so it takes more time and sacrifice and I can’t get as fancy with the cooking dishes and the cakes. I frequently brought in treats to the physios in attempts to “suck up” to them and show them that I wanted to be their friend. They LOVE white cake so the first week I made that and they devoured the whole pan amongst 7 of them. Then the following weeks I decided to bring them “American” foods that they had never experienced before. The cooking and baking worked well because we have all become good friends but unfortunately the “sucking up” also caused me to get into another really awkward situation. The physio who told me a couple weeks ago that he was going to ask my dad for my hand in marriage brought up the topic of marriage again. The whole physio staff had gone to visit a staff member who was sick (she served us porridge and their version of coffee cake in her little house I described in my previous blog) and we were all sitting down chatting and eating when in front of everyone the physio asked me “What do you think of you and I getting married? You are so busy so the only place I can ask you is here in front of the rest of them...” Yikes, that was an awkward question! Thankfully the rest of the physios there were laughing so I was able to play it off.

This week I decided to have the physio staff to the house that I’ve been staying at in order to properly thank them for the last month we’ve spent together. (The first two weeks I stayed in the hospital housing with my parents and the condition were really poor. I was blessed the last two weeks in that I got to move up the hill to Rift Valley Academy, a boarding school for missionary kids throughout Africa. I lived with a really sweet single woman counselor who let me stay in her extra bedroom.) The area the house is in is really nice and the physios called it “Little America” when they arrived. They had never been there before because it’s a gated community and they were so excited when getting the tour of it! I had to meet them at the gate to let them in and then we made the moderately steep climb up the hill to the house I live and I seriously thought the physios weren’t going to make it up. We had to stop and take breathing rest breaks every few minutes because they were so tired and out of breath. The walk ended up taking 30 mins (usually takes me only 10 mins) and they literally collapsed on the couches panting when we arrived. (This is the reason why I’m trying to get the exercise classes to continue after I leave…even the physios themselves can benefit from it!) Once we arrived the feast and the laughing began. I brought out all of the snacks that my family had brought from home and they were so intrigued with them and they were so happy that they literally laughed the entire evening. I wanted to bake an American treat for them but there are very limited supplies in Kijabe village so the easiest thing for me to make was chocolate peanut butter no bake cookies and they LOVED them. (It was really entertaining because they actually took the no bake cookies and dipped them in the almonds and popcorn and ate it all together- very humorous to watch!) The Kenyans were especially intrigued with the almonds because they’d never had them before. They also loved the raspberry lemonade. We enjoyed a night of laughter, food and fun together. When the night was coming to an end they asked me if I would stay forever with them at Kijabe hospital forever…and then they asked me again if I would marry the physio in the dept (he was right there with us which again created an awkward situation).

The thing that I am most reminded of with all of these interactions in Kenya is that although there are many cultural differences between Kenya and America and there are LOTS of difference between Kenyan and American healthcare and PT, both groups of people have the same primary need and desire for one thing. Relationships. For Kenyans the most important thing in life is the relationships that they have. For most Americans I know I would say the same thing. I know that personally relationships are what I cherish most in this world.

Because relationships are what Kenyans value most I quickly realized the thing that the Kenyans appreciated most about me wasn’t my PT knowledge or my white skin. It was that I wanted to get to know them and I spent time and effort doing so. I was reminded this week that I didn’t go to Kenya just to give lectures and in-services. I didn’t just go to Kenya to lead chapels. (Side note: this morning I got thrown into 3 of the above. 7:30am lecture to the whole nursing staff on total hip precautions because the patients keep dislocating in the wards due to mismanagement. 8am devotions to nursing school students- they told me to “preach the word” giving me only a 5 min warning. 8:30am in-service to physio staff on bilateral amputees. BUSY MORNING!) I didn’t go to Kenya for the Safari or for the beautiful landscape views of the Rift Valley. I went for one sole purpose…to build relationships.

When I first arrived at the hospital I had a hard time adjusting because I wanted to make a difference and completely revolutionize the way they do PT and help them make the necessary changes that I thought they needed. Throughout the time I’ve been here I’ve been looking for ways to help and different avenues to bring about change. I tried my best to do all this but I know that I epically failed. I really think that very little changes will be implemented after I leave. Even though I gave over 25 in-services/lectures and everyone seemed very enthusiastic about them at the time I’ve heard from missionary medical professionals that long term change is hard to come by here. A lot of them come back year after year because the love Kijabe but they’ve noticed that when they come back things are just the same as when they had left a year before even though they tried to implement a positive change it wasn’t enforced. However, I am VERY proud to announce that my first ever recorded exercise class exists on a DVD at Kijabe hopsital. I have been asked by dozens of people in college and grad school to film my classes and post on youtube so that they can watch and do the exercises but I’ve never done it before. It brings me SUCH great pleasure that the only ones ever recorded are in a tiny village in Kenya that I love so much. I don’t know if they’ll be used or if the exercise class I started will continue but I hope and pray so. They say it’s going to ; )

I have been thinking about the book “Purpose Driven Life” and although it’s been a long time since I’ve read it I always remember how it talks about how relationships are the sole purpose for our life, the reason God made us. I so strongly believe this. If I wouldn’t have made relationships with the physios or other medical staff I worked with then I would have had a horrible time in Kenya and it all would have been all worthless.

I’m so very thankful for the relationships I made at Kijabe. Sadly, I don’t know if I’ll ever see my Kenyan friends again. I hope to but either way I am very thankful for the relationships I made with them. They have changed and impacted me and I hope I’ve done the same on them.

Today when I was saying my goodbyes all the physios went around in a circle and shared with me what they appreciated about me and how much they had enjoyed our time together. They said the nicest things to me and told me that I was forever a part of them. At the end they all prayed a blessing over me. (In it they included that I would get married soon- they’re seriously desperate for me which is completely ridiculous!) Although they shed tears at our goodbye we also shared laughter (at least I laughed a lot) because they had framed the certificate I had won at the Kijabe race a few weeks back and they placed it in the bare walled physio room and they also took turns wearing the medal I won saying that they’re going to wear it until they day I return to Kijabe.

My heart is overflowing today. Isn’t it wonderful that God has made us to be relational beings? In every place I’ve lived over the past year I’ve been reminded over and over again that people are worth investing in. All relationships are worth pouring into, no matter what location they take place in or how long they last.

Saturday, March 8, 2014

JOY Town


One of the most life changing and eye opening experiences of my life was my trip to Joy Town this week. Joy Town is a boarding school run by the Salvation Army that has 300 physically and mentally handicapped kids. The requirement is that all kids accepted into Joy Town have a physical disability that requires at least 2 physiotherapy sessions a week. There is only one school that focuses on helping these kids with disabilities in Kenya and that is Joy Town and there is only one main hospital that primarily focuses on treating these patients with hydrocephalus and spina bifida, etc. in Kenya and that is Bethany Kids (part of Kijabe hospital.)  3.5% of Kenyan’s 40+ million have disabilities, which means that at least 1,400,000 throughout Kenya are not receiving the quality medical treatment and care that they both need and deserve.

The cost of Joy Town is low in American standards, 13,000 shillings for room and board all year, which is equivalent to $150. (This price can unfortunately be too expensive for most Kenyan families.) The school is from grades 1-8 and following 8th grade they take a National examination which either places them in high school or vocational school. (About 50% of students get high enough scores to continue on with their high school educations. The administration told me that increasing this percentage is an important goal of theirs!)

The administration at Joy Town has huge vision and they want to build a rehab center, not just for the kids within the walls of the school, but for other kids with disabilities as well. They have such a need for this! For example, 200 kids apply to the Joy Town school every year and unfortunately they are not able to take more than ~40 per year due to lack of funds. That leaves thousands of other Kenyan kids with physical and mental disabilities that need more rehabilitation and care.  Right now they are only able to open the rehab doors for outsiders to come to the physio clinic once every 5 weeks, which is not even close to enough therapy for kids with disabilities.

The other huge vision they have for Joy Town is having an orthopedic/prosthetic workshop but again they lack the funds and resources, as well as the education in these areas. All of these kids need assistive devices, wheelchairs, etc. made specifically for them but that is not possible due to the reasons listed above. Thankfully, they do end up with donated wheelchairs or walkers of some sort, however, they are very worn and weathered and can be very hard to fit properly for the kids.

I’ve mentioned in a previous blog that having a disability has a very bad “stigma” in Kenya. Often the child with cleft lip, hydrocephalus, spina bifida, CP (or really any type of physical or mental disability) will be abandoned by the father for sure, and usually the mother as well, because it’s really hard for a single mother to make the cost of medical bills on her own. These children can be found abandoned in bushes or killed by poison frequently because it reflects poorly on the family to have a child with disabilities. The Kenyan villagers are rooted in their false beliefs that these disabilities are caused by their own families’ sin and it is shameful for their family to show these kids in public.

One of the physio assistant’s name at Joy Town is Francesca and she has an amazing story that I want to share briefly with you. Because no one in her village understood what disability meant they thought she was a curse so her family when she was born so they had planned to soak her in poison like they did to the rest of the infants that had disabilities in their village. Thankfully her mom’s heart was softened by Francesca and she ran away with her as a baby before any damage could be done. Even though her life was spared, Francesca had a very hard childhood because of her undiagnosed spina bifida. It was very challenging for her to walk and she had no friends because she had no bladder control and had frequent accidents at school and home. She would often be abandoned by her mother and other caretakers that were put in charge because she was “too much of a hassle”. As an adolescent Francesca thought it was better for her to die than to live because she had been told that by numerous people in her life and she had continuously been abandoned for long periods of time. She tried to take poison twice in attempts to take her own life but God had way bigger plans for her than to die as an adolescent. Soon after the failed suicide attempts Francesca was taken to Bethany Kids at Kijabe Hospital by a distant relative. There she was told for the first time about her spina bifida. Also, there she was informed for the first time that she was loved by God. Throughout her time there her infections were treated, she was taught how to self cath so she could control her bladder for the first time ever and she received splints that helped her ambulate better. On top of all of that the best part is that her and the rest of her family, including her Dad and some of her siblings, came to know the Lord. The miracle of Francesca’s story has continued as she is now married and has a child. Her husband and her work full time at Joy Town. Francesca feels that her main purpose there is to share with the kids that they are loved and very special in God’s eyes and just because they have a disability doesn’t mean that God doesn’t have great plans for their lives. I am so thankful that I was able to meet Francesca and see the amazing emotional, physical, and spiritual influence that she plays in those precious kids’ lives. 

The thing that is crazy at Joy Town is that the kids have so much JOY. The joy emanates from every child and in seen in every worker that interacts with the children. The classrooms aren’t big enough for the students to bring in their wheelchairs so they all park their wheelchairs outside and get on the ground in order to crawl inside to their desks. When it is break/lunch time they crawl back to their chairs outside and the ones that are able to walk (some even with walkers) push the ones who need help wheeling up and down the hills. (Remember that these kids are between the ages of 7-15 so they’re not crawling as infants might.) Their teamwork and companionship is amazing. There’s no way that you can see them create a long train filing outside the classroom, helping one another, and not be brought to tears. The amount of challenges that those kids face every day is unfathomable for all of us. I cannot even begin to imagine the difficulties that they have to undergo. But there they are just smiling, laughing, hugging, talking, playing, and helping one another. That’s JOY that very few of us know anything about. I feel so blessed that I got to see a glimpse of it.

The need at Joy Town is overwhelming. They need prayers. They need funds and financial resources. They need people to come educate communities and villages that disability does not equal shame and there are treatments they can give to save these beautiful children of God. They need people to come love on the kids. They need teachers. (They have government teachers working there and they are extremely understaffed and underpaid for the amount of work they do.) They need special education teachers because they do not have specialized training for this. They need PTs and OTs. (For 300 kids who all undergo physio at least 2x/week they have 3 physios! Can you imagine how busy that would be?!? They specifically need someone who is educated in aquatherapy because they actually got the funds donated for a therapy pool so they have one but none of their physios are educated on how to use the pool for therapy with kids. If I could have stayed there longer or if I get to go back then I would love to help them in this area because aquatherapy can be very effective for kids since they usually hate regular land based therapy but they love the water and don’t realize that they are undergoing therapy when they’re in it.) They need orthotists and prosthetists since those professions don’t exist in Kenya. They need speech therapists. (The whole country of Kenya only has 2 SLPs- one of them does only academic research and the other lives across the country.) They need audiologists. (For ~40 million people in Kenya they have 2 audiologists- one of them is a new friend of mine who just moved to Kijabe this year from Texas to start the first ever audiology program at Kijabe hospital. She’s a courageous pioneer in the field of audiology in Kenya and her job is so rewarding because kids from all over the country come to hear for the first time in their life!) They need groups to come paint and build at the school. (Right now they only have 3 of the 11 bathrooms that are handicap accessible. All of them need to be handicap accessible since all of the kids at the school are handicapped). They need nurses to come train and work with the kids. (Over 60 of the kids have spinal cord injuries or spina bifida and don’t have bladder control so they need to be taught in self cath methods).

I could go on and on about the needs at Joy Town. If you want to help in any way or if you are interested in finding out more info I encourage you to go to the website and have a look for yourself. And of course feel free to talk to me if you have any questions about it! I’ll be posting the rest of the pictures from my day there soon ; )

What a life changing experience that I’m beyond thankful for. May I never forget those precious smiles and may I continue to pray for the Joy Town community. And someday I hope and pray that I can live with just 1/10th as much joy as those kids do.

If you’re interested in watching Francesca’s story on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8pKrOYXJ1KY